Lean on Me

Last night I put the kids to bed at 6:30 pm. Beth and Lucy didn't actually nod off until after 8 pm but it was quiet in the house. Jake and Alex read in their beds until 9 pm. Evenings are when I miss E the most. I think I spent 2 hours last night looking at blogs of people I didn't know. I wanted to read but couldn't focus. I planned out the meals for the coming weeks and the grocery lists to match. I planned out my exercise schedule but didn't exercise. Finally around 9 pm I decided to watch a movie so I let Jake and Alex cuddle up with me in my bed and watch a DVD on the portable player. We all sat in a really small little area so we could see and it was comforting. We talked about the movie throughout and then afterwards we sat and talked for about an hour. We fell asleep talking. I hope I can look beyond the frustrating things about parenting in the next few weeks and capture these times that build our relationships and help us lean on each other.

E arrived safely in Hong Kong and heads across the border into China after he sleeps.